ohman. something's very very wrong with me now. im feeling so helpless all of a sudden. aftr what i've heard from wenxia, i felt so.. different. -sigh

YOU! will you ever understand what am i going through? today, i just heard abt somethings which you told others. you said that you wunt ever forgive me, and if i wanted to be friends, i should make the first move. BUT THEN AGAIN, i made the first move to talk to you everytime. im a girl, you're a boy. yet im doing all these. cmon, i know you want face. but the problem is, i dunt even know what i did to make you SO angry with me! im involve too, why cant you tell me? damn. you made such a great impact in my life, and i felt lost without you by my side. you just left without saying bye. you dint tell me where you are going.

fuck, i really shld stop shedding tears for you. you're only my pu tong peng you. oh, i forgot, i dunt think you even treat me as a friend now, so why shld i treat you like mine?

but i really wish we're friends again. -sigh

my heart feels so heavy, and i've no one to talk to. im such a pathetic cow.