to him -

thank you for being with me whenever i need you
thank you for tolerating ma ever changing attitude
thank you for accompanying me almost every saturday
thank you for always forgiving me, whenever i did smth wrong t you
thank you for all the memories you had given me
thank you for being such a wonderful friend



til today, i still dunt know what went wrong. its almost one year since we last talked.
its not very long, but its not very short either. how many pple can tolerate all ma rantings? how many times can i just cry out with someone beside me?

still ,
im sorry things have t end up this way
i thought that things were going well
i thought i meant something t you
i thought we could be best friends
i thought you understood me
i thought you knew me wll
i thought aftr so long, things could be the same


but the fact is that those were my OWN thoughts. i never knew what you were thinking. honestly, i missed all the memories that we had shared through these 2 years. so far.. nothing in my life has made more impact than this. it seems like yesterday that i just knew you. i suppose i expected too much from this whole relationship/friendship that we had. we built this up together.. but i have just singlehandedly destroyed all that is left.
things will never be the same again.

you know what?

i miss the times when you were by ma side
i miss the times when we will chat on the phone til late at night
i miss the times when i will go somewhere far to find you
i miss the yur laughter
i miss yur cold jokes
i miss yur everything

I MISS YOU.

if not for you, i wunt be what i am today. i wunt know the feeling of losing someone close.
i want us to be like last time again. is it possible?
im waiting for that day to come.