arghs. cant' believe it. its a public hols. , and i'm at hm slacking.
hah. so pathetic.
and i had tution in the morning! :((
nvm. at least, i felt clever. -LOL

sighs. i felt so lost.

to shifu and beatrice :

im sorry things have to end up this way.
i thought things were going well.
i thought i meant something to you.
i thought we could be friends.
i thought you understood me.
i thought you knew well.
i thought after so long, things were still the same.

but the fact is that those were my OWN thoughts.
i never knew what you were thinking.
honestly, i missed all the memories that we had shared thru for the past two years.
so far.. nothing in my life has made more impact than this.
it seems like yesterday that i just knew you.
i suppose i expected too much from this whole friendship that we had.
we built this up together..
but i have just singlehandedly destroyed all that is left.
things will never be the same again.

im sorry.

if only, things will be the same again.